calgaris_rex

Lately I've been seriously considering going into architecture, or some similar art-based field instead of engineering.

Virginia Tech has one of the best architecture programs in the country, but that would mean staying here for the entire summer and then finding out whether I got in or not. Not a pretty option.

I've also looked at other schools, some of which look promising, but also expensive...

So I began reconsidering VT's program, until I realized what that would mean...

I choose YOU. There was never a question in my mind. Not EVER. I have plenty of time to go back to school, establish a new career, but I would never leave my relationship with you up to chance.

I love you so much.

BWAHAHAHA, David Sedaris wrote a note to me, Dane Miller, last night. Which is just amazing. And Val is amazing for going and getting it for me instead of getting himself one. Haha I was so on crack about that last night. Good times, with better times ahead.

In other news, I just went across the street to Schiffert and made an appointment for 17 October. I feel fine now, but, well, you know. I just don't want to have to deal with that, so I'm gonna pre-empt it.

MAKE IT WORK!!!!

I woke up, feeling not so hot. You know, that same old chest pain, but this time it had worked its way down to my stomach too. It got worse at breakfast, but I'm not sure there's an ailment around that can't be cured by good music, reading David Sedaris, and four cups of black coffee. So I'm feeling fairly peachy right now.

I just have a lot to do today: go to Schiffert to get a new doctor, fill out my loan paperwork, get a haircut, go to the emporium, do engineering, calculus, and chemistry homework, AND go to work. I think I'm going to be a tad busy today. I think I'm gonna get on that right NOW.

I'm getting to the point where I realize just how much the people around me mean to me; you don't really realize what you have until you're about to lose it or be separated from it, and now I realize how much all of these people mean to me: my parents, Diane, Nancy, Megan, and most of all, Val. I feel almost lost as I write this, but somehow I know I'll find the strength to just soldier on for a few weeks. Hopefully school will keep me busy enough that I can mostly ignore my loneliness, but I know that won't be the case.

I will think of you every minute of every day. You are my reason to get up in the morning, my sun and my moon, what makes my little world go round, and I want you to know how much you mean to me. I love you so much, and never want to lose you, and I'm sorrier than you'll ever know for having to go away and leave you and hurt you. I love you.

It does seem that everything does happen at once: meeting Val, leaving for school, borrowing money, packing, dealing with driving stuff, and anything I've neglected to mention. But with help, encouragement, and love, I feel like I'm flourishing even though my life is in overdrive right now.

More specifically, I got my license on Wednesday (I was so terribly nervous), so I drove to Val's last night and played a cruel trick on him ;-P. I drove everywhere yesterday, and was exhausted and sleepy on the drive home.

I've been doing a lot of artwork lately. It's all up on my DeviantArt account, and I think I'm getting better.

This music is awesome.